So overly happy at 1.30am plus that I had to login to write an entry!!
Back in poly days, I met a really great bunch of friends who, like me, enjoy giving back to the society and doing weird stuff together. Like… Stacking apples.
And writing encouraging notes for each other on the club whiteboard.*
*We are all in different courses, have different timetables and the club room is like one constant spot where we would all come by. So in a sense, the board is where we leave random messages, for fun and for encouragement.
I am not the best person when it comes to “keeping in touch”, especially when work got busier and busier. Once one of them called but I was rushing a pitch presentation at 2am? So I told her I couldn’t chat. Felt bad till this day but just never got around to making up for it. 😦
Moments earlier, one of my favourite person back then whatsapp-ed to let me know he’s settling down! Like, getting married!!
So friggin’ happy for him! :)))
In my six years of work, I’ve learnt to accept that some people would always be cold and distant. On the other hand, there will always be people who exudes a sense of warmth and friendliness, however long you know them. And you know, those are the keepers.
And this friend is one such example, such a genuine friend even after we graduated and went different ways. We don’t catch up regularly but when we do, it’s not patronizing bull*.
(That’s not a footnote asterisk, tsk.)
Quickly glanced through the old photos. Yes, that apple-stacking day again. HAHA.
When you know some friends to a certain level, you’d feel happy for them. Like… Even if it means watching afar! You’d be really, really happy that they are doing well, they are happy and all. That’s how I’m feeling!!
I was just passing by one of the places where we had Leo meetings back then!!
It’s so frickin’ fate. I haven’t been here in 8 years and when I did today, I get news that a great friend from that time is getting married. Aweeeeesome!!!
If any friend from that “era” is reading this, know that I miss you! Let’s find some time and meet for a chat! And I’m in the media industry, so don’t worry, I won’t try to sell you insurance, do survey or ask you to join Grab/Uber! 🙂
Earlier this week, I began part-time work at my former workplace and also for a new emerging events company, BigFoot Events.
So… We had to carry a super long poster from one place to another.
It was hilarious because
A) We’re trying to chat during the walk but we were too far apart, I couldn’t hear him, he couldn’t hear me. At one point we just gave up.
B) The banner was super long and we had to manoeuvre (I googled how to spell this) along the tiny walkway with people and cyclists passing by.
C) My boss told me in advance about this manual labour calling it embarrassing but as it turns out, my former workplace boss was right – he didn’t find it embarrassing. He was happily taking photos. Kekeke
So at the end of the day, he sent me this POV. And coincidentally, I took one from my POV too. (lowkey dies of laughter)
And yes, that’s the reason why I got to revisit the Leo club meeting place from 8 years ago. Isn’t fate so interesting sometimes? 🙂
So… Why did you leave your former workplace?
I’ve been asked this question umpteen times in the past 6 years.
Depending on the person asking and the circumstances, I have different answers and that made me gradually realize how important a decision it was back then.
I’m not an adventurous person. I hate travelling overseas. But back then, I discovered that there’s something even scarier than the unknown – the comfort zone.
The state of being where you enjoy what you do and/or are used to what you do, and like a switch, it turns off your sense of adventure and exploration, your fighting spirit and your ability to feel happiness with what you have.
I have to say, I’m SUPER lucky. That my former boss hired me when I hadn’t even graduated from school, and took baby steps with me to encourage me to grow.
But at some point in time, I got comfortable. Comfortable that’s more than what’s healthy. I feared change, feared having to be the decision-maker when I have these people as my safety net.
Among other reasons, I decided to leave. To venture out into the unknown. To hold myself accountable.
YOLOsg made me be the one in-charge. There is only one stage, one spotlight and one person responsible. There was no place for me to hide. First it was pretending to be strong. Until I accepted the state of being where I make being emotionally strong in professional work environment a habit. Of course, I still falter now and then but… I’m getting there. 🙂
Leaving the awesome workplace back then, was like emptying everything that filled my life and my heart. Venturing out was filling myself with different things, and now that I have returned to where I left, I have different things to give.
And I love that. That’s the most awesome part about work – knowing that you have something to contribute, to give, to help pull something off. That’s what keeps me alive. The feeling that being alive is meaningful.
When you wake up everyday knowing that you have something to give, you don’t think about putting an end to your life. You think about what you can do for yourself to prolong your length of contribution, and for others to have a better life.
I am slower than others, but a step in the right direction is what counts, isn’t it?
Being back to where I left 6 years ago, and still having the time to do the other things that I love – I’m super SUPER SUPER SUPER grateful for the way that things are working out this year.
If you’re reading this, I hope you’d feel a little happiness from mine, and live each day with your own fighting spirit! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!